Tuesday, December 10th, 2013...9:10 pm
There’s a problem here. A pattern emerging that isn’t quite what I want it to be. An early early morning pattern of rising and calling. “Mom! MOM! Come get me!”
But it isn’t time yet. I’m not ready yet.
And he is too.
The funny thing is, I’ve been here before. With another certain small person who also liked to wake before the clock struck 6, before my eyelids would open willingly, at early hours that call for coffee and more coffee and maybe some more coffee after that.
You’d think that being on this same road, at the same hours, not that long ago, I’d know exactly how to navigate. I’d have the path figured out. Maybe I should have left myself some more breadcrumbs along the way.
But I didn’t.
And all week I just crossed my fingers that this was a joke. An even more temporary temporary phase.
This can’t be the new normal? Right?
Until I realized that it probably is.
This morning was the earliest. 4:10. I coaxed him back to sleep for a little while, but he screamed again an hour later and I took him out of the room in fear that he’d wake Nora at that same horrible early hour.
All day I dragged. Tired even though it was Ken who got up with him this morning. Miles fell asleep on the way to school, which he never does. He’s tired too. He shouldn’t be getting up that early.
I have to fix this, I kept thinking.
And then I remembered. I found one breadcrumb that led to an idea.
Will it work again? Who knows. But we are trying it.
And crossing fingers really hard that this second time down this same early road is about to come to an end.